Vacation? T-minus 36 hours

I've got one last document to do before I finish up my current assignment but I can't be bothered tonight. I'll finish it in the morning. I've been working like crazy the last couple of days, trying to get my work done before Zac and I head to Australia. I wasn't feeling pressure from my Higher Ups, I just didn't want to go away for two weeks in the middle of something. I know I'll be better able to relax knowing that I can start something fresh when I get back.

I was surprised to learn that a couple new people found my blog over the last few days. One of them works with my husband. (He stumbled upon it when he Googled the Swamp Romp.) The other is an ex-boyfriend. (Who knows how he found it.) The point is that it really has caused me to think critically about what my blog is, or what the limitations have to be. My blog certainly isn't my journal - that's where I can write completely un-edited. I can say honestly what's on my mind. It's raw. Not spell-checked. On the other hand, my blog has become increasing edited for content.

When I started the blog, I'm not sure what I exactly I wanted from it. I used it mainly as a place to vent. Sometimes I wanted to say something quickly, and I can type faster than I can write in my journal. Especially when Zac was stationed in El Sal and we were prepping for the wedding, then the move to Hawaii, I had plenty of anxiety for fodder. But once Zac and I moved out to the (808) the blog became more of a keeping-in-touch tool. Friends and family back home check it out to see what we're up to, looking for the occasional photograph and such.

And now that one of Zac's co-workers stumbled across it, I really do have to consider carefully what I want to put here. I knew that this was a possibility, and it's one reason that I haven't talked much about the Navy, how Zac and I are adjusting, how I feel about the people I've met, etc. When I've talked about Navy-centric topics I've tried to keep them quite neutral. But I hate feeling like I can't be open about it, because then I feel like I'm giving a watered-down version of what's really going on. It's complicated.

So I think I'm just going to continue as is for now. Part reflection, part narrative. Some entries better than others.

Oh, one last thing for the evening. Are you looking forward to potentially brilliant posts about the trip to Australia? Unfortunately you might have to wait until we get back at the beginning of April. I may be incommunicado until then. Unplugged? That actually sounds rather lovely. . .